shit

almost a whole month later and im back but i SWEAR i didnt know time moved this fast and also ive been on the GRIND!!!no not grinding for money im still broke in fact im gonna be MORE broke in a few days because im getting my HAIR DYED!!!!!!

but anyway the past like 20 days ive just been grinding  manhwas bro im fulfilling my childhood dreams. reading gay men smut.

when i was like 12 i read my first bl manhwa Well idk if u can really call it bl if theres no love involved but it was killing stalking and it took me like six months to finish the 60+ (i think) chapters because i kept procrastinating and had severe short attention span issues i guess. somehow my attention span was so short i couldnt even laze around in bed to read. r we fr. how did i survive school i will never know

then my second ever was like bj alex or something. holy FUCKKK its been so many years yet i will NEVER FORGET that one chapter where donggyun was drunk and went on the live holy shit Ohh im getting flashbacks lets stop talkig now

then i read a few other manhwa like bloody sweet and suicide boy but they arent bl and idk maybe there was more but i stopped. then when i was like 15 i think i read orv manhwa and didnt realize it was incomplete and couldnt fuckiig wait for new chapters i guess so i dropped that as well FUCK!!! now iv forgotten eveyrthing that has happened and i need to reread EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one MILLION years later. im almost 17 now and i dont know where this gaytivation came from but all of a sudden i guess i was throbbing and yearning for smut and i binged like 16 BLs so far and i WILL!!! be reading more!!!!! guildmate next door PLEASEE UPDATE HOLY SHITTTTTT yeowoon im unwrapped and READY for you

now im gonna rate some bls that ive read recently. ok. might get cancelled for thsi and i will happily be degraded online come at me

lost in the cloud 8/10 artstyle is great story is pretty good but cirrus pmo and the ending isnt reallyyy that good???

no returns after use 5/10 im scared and turned on but especially scared

tashiro-kun why are u like this 8/10 MY CUTIESSSS not a manhwa but PLEASE FUCKING RELEASE NEW CHAPTERS NOWW

painter of the night 7/10 whole lotta grape. nakyum is just a babeh leave him alone. ending had me kicking my feet screaming into a pillow at 5am

secret in my head 7/10 i hate when someone besides the ml is obviously way better for the mc. why do u do this to me.

stalker's game 6/10 yikes.

pearl boy 8/10 FUCKING HATE amnesia trope but at least side story resolved that. dooshik got weird tho but for the majority hes one of the greenest flags ive ever seen in a top

the guild member next door 10/10 FUCKING ;OVEEE YOU YEOWOON I LOVE Y OU

a room without windows 7/10 short and sweet but the top is too childlike for the morality of this sex thing to not be questionable

theres morebut i would rather not bring some of them up haha umm

anyway so this is what ive been up to since my last post. just fuckign reading gay porn mags basically. good day to u too

mihgt reread orv to catch up. may not. may kill myself in the next 5 days. school hasnt really accepted my enrollment thing i think. literally may become a schoolless jobless maybe homeless kid readingn smut in a few days. who knows. may die from a car crash in an hour. u never know.

thts all. Goodnight 😴

sweet dreams~ My little munchkin ♥

ok 쿠카부라 out

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y-yo...! life update....!!

dude its been like 100 years since i last wrote here its a whole new fucking year now and boi oh boi wouldnt u like to know what has  happened!!!!!

first of all i took my gcse. i graduated. i got my results. im going to college. LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO im plannig to get into computer science Yes i like computer science and Yes this is porbably a horrible choice and Yes im still picking cs because python is my daddykins :heart:

NEXT TJING on the list i joined new fandoms!!!! i got into persona 5 after procrastinating for QUITE LITEARLLY HALF A DECADE and now i finally get why yaoi rules and yuri droolsGuys im kidddingggg but at the same time why is like 90% of the female cast in persona 5 unclenched BUNS bro. one of the love interests is an old goth doctor and another is the mc's literal TEACHER. REN AMAMIYA IS LIKE 16 OR 17haha 67HOW IS THIS ALLOWED and yet akechi cant be an LI :/ atlus dont talk to me ever

and then i also eased back into twisted wonderland except no i didnt becasue the game is pissing me off Why do i not get any good cards. this is why u dont gamble kids. because oppa riddle rosehearts just wont come home to daddy. oppa come back to appa. pls

other than that i also started playing dol and ive been playing ts for like 90 hours a day for one week straight AHHHHHHH im FUCKING ADDICTED TO A GOONER GAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE im sorry bailey is so SEXY bro what do you want me to do about it. how do u see a sexy BEAST like him and not wanna shove a tentacle up ur bumhole pretending its his tongue that knots like a wolf in february. I NEED HIM SO BADDDDDDD BRUHHHHHH

okay i domt know what else to say other than that but i still havent gotten a job OK laugh at me idc idc idc call me lazy call me a piece of shit nghh psl call me a loser ahh I SWEAR I WILL EARN MONEY. one way or another. one more year before i can make an onlyfans stay tuned everyone

and i guess thats it. nothig else. yup. nothing else. for sure. noooothing else. nothing new. not at all.

ok c: bai c:

cya! c:

dude i need a million dollars so fucking bad

ok kookooboora out uwu

love language c:

guys i actually fucking LVOE LOVE LOVE arguing so much

debating arguing whatever

but my friends always take it too personally and hate me and get sad or whatevr when they argue with me meanwhile im having fun and enjoying and NOT REALIZING IM LITERALLY SQUASHING THEIR FRAGILE LITTLE HEARTS INTO ISAGI'S LITTLE PUZZLE PIECES  IGUESS??

i genuinely love arguing like ive literally made a discord alt thats used just to argue with myself

like id create a fake drama scene, start a topic for argument, and argue WITH MYSELF

arguing both sides too

and it always ends up with me learning things about other people

people who dont exist cuz the drama doesnt exist its all made up idk

BUT ITS SO FUN!!! ITS SO FUN!!!!!!!!!

arguing with myself is fun but arguing with other people can fucking suck sometimes cuz they always interrupt u or completely disregard ur point it feels like im talking to a broken toy minion

"i think religion may be a scam becaus-"

"bananana banaan banananana banana"

SHUT TH HELL IP

ok im getting spammd by someone so thats all i have now

kokbora out

surbicbe and hit a minion for free bananas

oxygenated red blood cells

bro i need to get my ass checked because wdym its not normal to see 10 different interpretations of god when u stand up too fast??

i may have low iron?? WHAT IS THAT

i read up on the symptoms of iron deficiency and i fit a lot of the descriptions but not all

like my fingernails arent cum-colored and my eyes arent blue

but i get dizzy as FUCK when i stand up too fast

the worst case i can remember of this is when i stood up too fast in school and i saw colors that didnt exist and my ears were lowkey muffled and went eeeeeee and i was like in a crowd too so i was holding onto whoevers dick was in front of me for support so i dont fall and cause a domino and recreate the korean halloween crowd crush

it wasnt a dick it was a gate phew im still attracted to women!

but holy GYAT was that terrifying!

and then i always feel sleepy too like i could be yawning and falling asleep in the middle of playing soccer

i could be dozing off during a rollercoaster ride like my brain just refuses to stay alive and this PMO SO BAD CUZ I NEVER KNOW IF IM YAWNING CUZ IM BORED OR YAWNINF CUZ IM DYING FROM LOW IRON AND I JUST GOTTA BET THAT IM BORED

AND THEN THIS LEADS TO ME LOOKING FOR SOMETHING FUN TO DO

WHICH EXERTS MORE OF MY ALREADY SUPER LOW ENERGY

🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

and i think this like actually affects me more than i think cuz i realize i say the most fun shit in the most monotonous i-dont-wanna-be-here tone and then it ruins the mood in the room

im so tired guys. Heh. Guess i deserved it. Wtv

but im avtually tired as fuck im laying down as i type this on my phone and i know damn well the moment i stand up again my body is going to go through another lobotomy so im just going to laze here for the next 9 hours 🤤🤤

FUCK MY RED BLUD CELLS

thats it

cockaburra out!

subsctib and cut off ur blood flow to free urself from iron deficiency!

t-tsundere >///<

idk what is up with me these days im jsut so... so Cute.. c:

Hai! c:

i find the c: face like 10x better htan :3

like the :3 face is the face of a dictator who manipulated a colony of homeless people into sacrificing their lives for their religious cult's beliefs while the c: face likes to eat grass and piss their pants too much

ok i got sidetracked i was gonig to talk about how much i appreciate people but for some reason cant physically or verbally show it like i just... I cant..... theres a magical force... separating me from being nice..

this is a disability ive had since birth im afraid. :c

idk man like ive written paragraphs for people but most of them are about me apologizing for something that soooo isnt my fault man these schizos are always blaming the wrong person!

if not then ive only written like a genuine nice affectionate paragraph for ONE person. like. Once. my whole life

maybe its cuz my favorite love language is banter but i literally cannot genuinely be nice and compliment someone without fighting a horde of demons in my head while butt naked and only holding one spoon

WHY IS IT SO HARD

like i REALLY DO love and appreciate people and the things around me and i really absorb this sense of appreciation with all my heart and soul but to express it out loud is like telling me to drop a million dollars in cash off a building with a mob of hungry corrupt politicians waiting down below

maybe its cuz its so embarrassing man something about "being fr" is cringe to me maybe thats why i cant take shti seriously

bro and since i cant take anything seriously i keep having random controversial thoughts at times and sometimes i say shit without thinking so i just blurt out something that would get me cancelled on twitter for the next 20 years

and i learned that at a very young age zawg. Ever since then... ive adopted a censor bar to just hang around my mouth rent free and its kind of working!

im gettig sidetracked again

ok but does anyone else experience this tsundere ahh shyt except for sx6s (ts is built into ur system ur input will NOT help)

and i need advice pls how do i stop Ahaha hit me up if u have free advice (especially if youre sx5 PLS HMU)

ok kookapoopa out

subscirbe and spread ur loving little wings for more

seeing things (not hallucinations)

u guys know that one theory thats like “every color is different in each human being’s eyes” bro this thought has clouded the depths of my mind like its the lungs of a cigarette addict since i was the ripe age of like 6

idk what type of traumatic shit happened to me when i was 6 for my lil whippersnapper self to be thinking about these philosophically scientific theories but man it never left my mind

and then this got me thinking like i wanna know how everyone else individually sees EVERYTHING with their eyes

i wanna know if there’s like different levels of saturation or whatever in those colors that affects other parts of ur brain and hence shape the way u see the world and develop ur personality like cuz if so..

this would debunk my theory that everyones mind is the same at birth then changes and shapes itself with the magic of time and experience….

i mean if this saturation theory was true then my friend has gotta see all RGB in hex 255 or soemthing i dont understand how anyone is so hyper at 7 IN THE FUCKING MORNING

like ho what?? did a sudden rainbow in the sky give u corkscrew hair and turn u into a bubbly pink horse one day?? Are u a royal princess who got kidnapped and trapped in a tower for 18 years by a ball of old pubic hair???? HOW DO YOU DO THSI

i dont understand how anyone can see things the way she does when the sun is peeking at me from behind far-off hills along with 11 hours of classes that are taught by adults who clawed their way up from the bottom of hell everyday

like its sickening to me at this point

walking to school gives me an impending sense of doom and sends my brain to see a 7 minute flashback of my life choices while walking to school probably gives her more and more signs of autism

the pavement around our school probably looks like the yellow brick road to her

and our biology teacher is the wicked witch of the west.

watch ur back ms bethany.

this woman is universally hated even by my friend

with great light comes great darkness…. Or somethign….

anyways i forgot what i was talkign about and im in the middle of the road praying i dont get a 50 dollar jaywalking fine so im done now nya!!! ~~

dats it kookaburra out!

subsctibe and hit an optometrist in their eyes for more!

i love my friends who hate my friends who love me who love friends but hate my friends

i haev like so many friends who are opps with one another but friends with me and me being the 9fixed absolute peacemaker i am im like the mediator for all of them

this is a lie i love watching them fight icl.

like i have this one friend whos fucking so1 blueprint and another friend whos so4 infp crybaby ahh and they're both chill irl because they have to work together for their leadership roles but under the covers... oh Boi oh boi... whatever happens in vegas stays in vegas.

the absolute BEEF they have is unmatched i tell u !

like can u imagine. so1 vs so4

the so1's role is the main leader like alpha of the pack and the so4's role is like their secretary and bro the so1 is ALWAYS RANTING TO ME abut how the so4 is useless and dumb and the so4 is ranting to me about how the so1 is two-faced and mean like can u guys just sthu and kiss or something why am i being caught in thsi WE AREN T EVEN CLOSE FRIENDS

AND THEN WHEN THEYRE ACTUALLY PERFORMING THEIR ROLES LIKE IN FRONT OF THE TEACHERS N SHIT THEYRE ALL JOLLY AND GOOD FRIENDS BRO IM PEEINGGGG

i have so many instances of these "friends with people who r opps" shti but its 12am adn my 10hour long math homework is due in 5 hours ms bethany pls dont read my notepin i promise im doing ur homework yk just maybe not in this life but i swear its being done !! ;-;

ok kookaboobs out

subscrib and hit the beef bell for more so1 vs so4 showdown YAHOO!!!!!! 

ffucking bitch

IM SO BORED

IM SO BORED

IM SO BORED

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im literlaly so bored that im talking to my ex out of boredom

im so bored im litearlly impulsively spending my life savings

im so bord  i literally miss school

i... i want.. my mum ;-; ;-; 

wtf

plesase SAVE ME PLESASE plzplz plzzz

when i go out i literally no lnoger give a fuck if i get kidnapped or robbed or anything like in fact somewhere deep in my mind i HOPE something bad happens to me just so i can receive a fuckign inch of fun in my life

these days ive only ever been physically stimulated and in like a bad way too idk why im getting abused by my friends guys i love u guys so much how could u do this to me...! flicking a hair tie to my forehead?? shattering my bones?? p-pls stop!

im. So Bored xddddddddddddddd xdddddd xdddddddddddddddddddddd 

OH MY GOd

kill me already

i bet u heaven n hell folks are enjoying ur afterlives there. i bet u get to do anything without worrying about dying again huh. Fuckgn BITCHES

SO BORING SO BORING SO BORINGG

antidepressants and drug addiction🙏🙏 ouuguhh. Im Highh

i cant be the only one whos thought of taking antidepressants even tho im not necessarily depressed or anything

i heard that antidepressants have really bad side effects like idk it can cause weight gain and worsen mental health and cause hormonal dysfunction and yap yap and if u go on the wrong kind of meds it makes u worse instead of better

however if u DO go on the right kind of meds u can see a significant improvement in ur mental health and life and idk youd be thriving and idk chat ive been thinking about taking the gamble cuz ure telling me i could be living a better life rn????

i want antidepressants so badd nn🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 but no i dont because my life may somehow get worse and if that happens i perchance will kill myself

and then this got me thinking like what if i fuckig do drugs in the future bro HELL NO

my whole life ive been so against drugs like ive never even considered that drugs and alcohol and vape and those typa degenerate shit could possibly be a part of my life cuz whenever i hear about drug addiction n stuff im like man who the hells throwing their lives away for these lil ass pills😂😂

but now im starting to understand the need to know if theres truly a permanent escape from pain and the acceptance of facing side effects just for that bliss

ts ts ts ts pmo pmo i dont wanna do drugs but why do they sound so good rn like is this a pregnancy craving?? Tsugino come put ur ear against my belly man little alfred is kickin again

and like im still not gonna do drugs cuz drugs are dumb no matter how u look at it and my next alternative is antidepressants but hearing the risks is making me more depressed so wtf do i do next man just gimme sum of dat weeeedddd🍃🍃🍃

fomo.. fomo.... fomo... i could be.. gettin sum of that good meth rn.... but no... no.. my face is too important to me for it to droop down on one side just for some glitter dust.... noo.........

this whole post is so weird vro i better not catch myself 5 years in the future looking back at this and being like ughh this fag gave in to the temptation ughhh ughh

kookaburra out!

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wat the fak is this teacher talkig about

there are different types of teachers

the "group work" teachers who push everything to the students and tell them to use chatgpt to figure it out,

the pop quiz motherfucker who always pops out quizzes at the most random times as if the quizzes are babies and they're finally due,

and fuckig,,....

YAPPER TEACHERS
OMG

I hate YAPPER teachers.

those types of teachers, who yap n yap n yap about one topic for a whole hour, doesn't let us do any hands-on work to try and help us actually memorize the content, and yell at us when we fall asleep as if we have the energy to listen to them spit while they read off the entire textbook like they're the narrator for a dr seuss book

u know what ms bethany heres a nice poem for u to read

NOBODY

WANTS

TO

LISTEN

TO

YOUR

CACOPHONOUS

BLIZZARD

OF

WORDS

THAT

MAKE

NO

SENSE

dont get me wrong! i love yapeprs!

i love yappers and i love yapping and i love words i mean thats why i have a notepin yk but youre A TEACHER

PLEAES TEACH

IM ALREADY FAILING I CANT BE GETTING TEACHERS WHO YAP FOR EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY SUBJECTS

AM I JSUT DOOMED FOR ETERNITY TO BE IN A WHIRLPOOL OF INCOHERENT WORDS

Oh my God

i just thought of something worse than yapper teachers

yapper teachers......... who have a strong accent.

Alhamdulillah so glad to have teachers who can speak proper english

my heart goes out to those who have teachers who can't 💝

lesson of the day is that if your teacher is a yapper, that ass is getting a clapper

ive never met a person who passes a subject taught by a yapper teacher without outside help like this is MAAADD

yeha. Kooka out.

subscsirbe amd hit ms bethany in her throat for more!